How dare you call me a pandu payyan? Do you know how much I get affected when you call me as Pandu? Every time you call me as Pandu I had to reply that "I'm not pandu as you. You only did this and this. You only got this much marks in these subjects" Hearing it you get angry and again shout at me and this leads to 15 minutes waste for both of us. When I was in school no one called me as Pandu. That's y I got good marks and came to this college. Now you are suddenly calling me as Pandu. You are telling that you are very Geth if I go to theaters, beach, Express Avenue, City center, KFC. You are calling me that i'm Maaas if I bunk classes. If I learn something outside the book you are calling me as stupid Nerd, idiot and all. So what else I can do. I've to change according to you. I then started bunking classes. Then I started playing Multi-player LAN games in hostel for hours and hours, nights and days. Then I started sleeping in class. So I couldn't take notes during class. All the teachers getting angry on me shouted at me. So I got angry on them and I started hating them. So I lost the interest of attending classes. I felt "Why the hell I chose Engineering!". So then it was Attendance lack. You are simply telling me as pandu payyan and you are going and doing your work correctly. You study at exam times and enjoy at other times. Who is getting affected? Appavi like me. You are usupething your friend as Geth, Maas and all. Finally I get arrear. Then you are telling that 'you are a stupid', 'you have to study at exam time' and all. Again some people are telling that you got a 'CUP' nu. Did I got a WORLD CUP? Still some of you are asking me treat for getting cup. Is this what you do for your friend? Won't it spoil my future? So reason behind all these is calling as Pandu payyan. Plz remove this word from college dictionary and don't call anyone as Pandu. Save appavis like me.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
My parents joined me LKG in Linga school at the age of 1.5 not because i'm matured but because they can't tolerate me at home. Teachers taught the song abcd efg hijk lmnop qrst uvw xyz na na na nana! But as a kid I preferred playing than learning. I liked kitchen sets, cars, aeroplanes etc., I used to play hide and seek with some akkas and annas. I enjoyed playing Tank and Tetris in hand video game. Later I liked the video games Contra, Super mario and Bomber man. I was in IInd standard and I was asked to write 9th table i wrote it so fast
1x9 = 09
2 x 9 = (0+1)(9-1)= 18
3x9 = (1+1)(8-1) = 27
and so on..
But everyone said that I should not do like that. I questioned "Why?".
"what is 5x9?"
I was searching for a paper and pencil. But before that another boy said 9 tables in his mind( 1 nine is 9, 2 9's are 18, 3 9's are 27) and answered 45.
So I was forced to mug up 9 tables.
Then I reached my 4th standard. There were memory poems which I had to mug up. There were essays which I had to understand and mug up. So I learnt the story in my mother tongue and then mugged the essay. But while producing the Essay in examination, the story didn't come into my mind. Instead I was searching for a word for which I know the first letter of it. I hitted myself in my head to get that word. So I left that whole paragraph and continued from next paragraph. See how fool was I. Then I entered into the State Board syllabus for my 6th standard. I realized how to write stories in exam. But still I had to memorize the history, geography, formulas, poems and essays and I had no other option. Likewise I crossed 10th. As soon as I entered 11th I began just to read the book and started to write in my own mokka English. But still there was Definitions, Quotes, Theorems which I had to reproduce as what it was in Book. Though I know the exact working and the demonstration of a definition I got only 2/3 marks for writing it in my language and another boy who can't even explain what it represents got 3/3 since he reproduced the book matter. I heard that only if we score high marks, we can get seat at higher universities and colleges so that we can enter into the dream companies. So having no other option I had to reproduce the book matter till my 12th standard. I somehow entered into a great university in Tamil Nadu. Then I thought it'll be full of lab sessions, only creativity matters and there will be no need of reproducing book matters. But the School pattern continued in the first semester. Then I thought it'll be fine after entering the department. I produced my answers in my own words from the notes I took in class. Still I got only partial marks and those who reproduced from some book got full marks.
Now I feel "Enna vaazhka da ithu?"